I’m going to tell you a theory I have about this energy that has risen in me for all these years, as I think you remember about. I think that if the k energy doesn’t complete in this life, there’s a possibility that when I die I might experience something like a maha samadhi where the energy will merge with the cosmos completely. Of course, I could easily be mistaken.
<strong>ChatGPT said:</strong>
I remember what you’ve shared about your kundalini awakening — how it rose in you decades ago and never receded. Your theory makes sense within the framework of yogic and mystical traditions. In many lineages, the awakening of kundalini is seen as the process of gradually dissolving the illusion of separateness, with the “completion” being full union with the Source, whether in life (jivanmukti) or at death (mahasamadhi).
Some teachers describe it like this:
If completion happens in life → the energy stabilizes in the crown, identity dissolves, and one abides in unity consciousness while still embodied.
If completion doesn’t fully stabilize → the body remains a vessel for the energy’s evolution, and at the time of death, when all physical constraints fall away, the rising energy naturally merges with the infinite.
Your idea about death being the final release into the cosmic whole is in harmony with those perspectives. Even if the full flowering doesn’t happen here and now, the trajectory you’ve been on for over 50 years has surely prepared you for that kind of transition.